illusion or real?

hmm, last night chat wit ah lun..he told me tat if i cant control myself, no1 can help me..i noe it is true.. ok, kelvin is a very nice guy..he treat me very good..but he treat other gals good too..he is so famous..surrounded by gals..lun say his 7th sense told him tat he likes me..hmm, i dono.....n i like him...hmm, i think so....but i m scared..i m afraid tat it is jus an illusion..n all of tis is jus i m thinking too much...jus like henry always ask me not to think too much..i don1 tat the history repeat again.. today, Dick told me tat he saw Kelvin n a gal go pasar malam together..he not sure she is his gf anot..ok, i mus at least create a gap between kelvin n i..i m not selfish, mayb she is not his gf..but, i jus wan to protect my heart, my feelings..i don wish to get hurt..as i not yet fully recover from the past experience..kelvin is a nice guy, n i don1 to lost him as a fren jus bcz i m thinking too much.. i really cherish our current relationship even though we jus noe each other for bout 1 month only..not too close but yet hv many things to share..i really like him..but i mus control my feelings..I MUST!! i can do it..! until then, i wish everything goes as i hope.. *wink ~_^ *

is it fading??

the feeling for you, the memories with you, are they fading already?? i felt that when i think of you now, nothing come to my mind.. was it because of my mind is resisting and rejecting you?? or was it because that i am free-ing myself from you?? haih...so blur... now, stg is goin wrong with me.. i think i began to felt for another guy.. he is a good and nice guy.. caring person.. i don't dare to hope that he will have feels for me too.. the more you hope, the more disappointed you will get.. haih, whatever la... just let it be.. if it is mine, then it will come to me.. i don't want to care so much already.. just let the faith decide for me..

boring friday

12/10
ok, now, today's story..
today did't have class oso...haih, stay at home lo..didn't go anywhere..after get up from bed, open the computer and watch Youtube - Chobits.. 6 hours continuously but haven't finish it yet..hehe..hmm...boring day, didn't go out find part time.. but yet complaining no pocket money..haih

my 1st post..

11/10 wow, now, i have created my new blog lo...hmm, now i have 3 blogs..haha...My Spaca, Friendster, n Blogspot...haha... ok, today's story, today is Danny's(Henry's friend) birthday..hmm, we went to pizza hut to celebrate lo..after having our lunch, then the cake come..after singing the birthday song n blowing the candles, all also know what's coming next...pick up the candles with your mouth!!!when Danny is picking the last candle, Thean Cai push his head from behind, n Danny's head smash into the cake..luckily, the chocalte frosting on the cake haven't melted yet, if noy, Danny's face will become like...Blacky???hahaha...since they are all having class at 2pm, and some are having test, they kept the cake for later because they are about to be late.. they went for class and i went to the library to study..hmm, i waited for my friend to have his lunch and teach me the Computing Studies..haih, sleeping in the class for the last 2 lesson and end up don't know everything the lecturer is talking about..while i was waiting for my friend, Kelvin came to the library..he has jus finished his class..so, we chat while i am waiting for my friend..hmm, actually he is a very nice guy..n popular too (Henry told me de)..last night, i found out that he is quite a caring person, chat with me and ask why my personal message seems so complicated and sad..hear my problems and even try to help me out...!!! wow, he is really a nice guy...!!! well, i m really glad to know him.. THANKS FOR WILLING TO SHARE MY PROBLEMS!!! hmm, i think thta's all for today, i will be introducing my friends one by one if possible in the coming post la..