day 5 AD

hmm, oredy 5 days after tat day.. bz wit the work loadS, replacement classeS, tests, excursion.. therefore, not much time to think bout the incident..in addition to that my laptop oso giving my a hard time.. haih.. still feeling so stressful le..

finally i found a new hp tat i wish to hv d.. C702, although it is not a new released hp, but i like it, its funtions met my expectations..it price is oso considerable, though it exceeded my budget la.. but i will work hard for it.. not wat we normally say for comforting ourselves, but really as wat its literal meaning- "work hard", cz my savings is very low d.. since Dec 08 when i din work for 1 month.. n Jan 09 i din hv any savings.. haih.. so now, i m starting to save money for it!! approximately RM750++ n i hv target to reach tis ammount by end of May..still hv 3 months to go.. though i set the date a little earlier than i can actually reach the ammount, but i guess i jus hv to do it.. bcz i need a new hp!!! not tat i m switching to a new hp or jus hv another new 1, but as it literally meant "i need a new hp"..

wish i can accomplish tis small little goal i hv for tis moment (aside from wat the big goal is - my studies!)..


GAMBATEH~~~!!!
U CAN DO IT~~~!!!
U MUS DO IT.. ANYWAY..
haha.. q(^_^)p

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For u..

I feel that r u trying to avoid me..
u certainly r..

i dono u will read tis or not,
but i will still write it down,
of wat i m thinking now..

i dono y u r avoiding me,
but at the same time,
i guess the reason is quite obvious d..
wat i really dono is y?

if u think tat i will hurt when u reject me,
then wat i can say is,
i feel more hurt if u think like tis.

wat i ask for is a chance..
not tat u shud accept me..
but a chance tat i wan for me tat i wont regret later..
if rejection is the only ending i get,
i will accept it..
but not regret and disappointment..
tat i don even hv the chance..
to voice out..

regret is more painful than being rejected..

wit tat,
i can face u with a more positive feelings in the future..
not anger or hatress..

n we could b like any other friends do..
but all relationships,
whether freindship or love,
is a 2-way relationship..


i really do hope..
we can..

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i wish i could say "8 661153 7"

ur personal msg..
ur sms..
wat u replied me..
everything...
wat u said..

all these..

although it may meant wat it really wana meant,
or mayb it us meant nthg..
but it is so significant to me..

although it mayb a joke of urs,
or it mayb the truth u r trying to tell me..

i don noe..
i really don noe...

i dono when u r kidding
and when u r being serious..

the only thing i can say is,
i trusted u..

but sometimes, i dono i shud or not..
whether to believe wat u said to me..


it may bcz of my feelings for u,
that make me to become so uncertain..
sometimes..


i m being so naive that,
now...
u hv turn my world upside down..

i dono i shud regret for it or not...

i wish i will not regret..
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but,
u hv hurt me so much n so deeply..
that sometimes,
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"8 661153 7"



because......

~* 8 99.94443 7 *~

Christmas of 2008..usual yet sweet

hmm, din celebrate christmas tis year (actually is a few years d..haha) well, jus stay at home as usual, repeat wat i do for this few weeks - sleep, eat, tv, stare at computer, dreamming n of cz house chores..

but i did go out yesterday, christmas eve..not countdown or anyhting but jus yumcha wit a gang of frens at mamak..craps a lot of things but i m the one who is the quite 1, sit n listen..n being the "cinderella" among them, i need to reach home b4 12, so we leave b4 midnight..haih, miss the chance to countdown wit them..

1 thing...to my surprise, i received a small present from some1..my "belated birthday present a.k.a. christmas present"..wow, for years, i don receive christmas presents d..really a surprise..very happy n touching~~~(especially the present is from him..haha =p) it is a dark chocolate, my favorite!! thxz la, 5333... q(^_^)p

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boring holiday @_@??

hmm, so long din visit here n blog..actually there is stg wrong wit frenster n windows life space lately, hence, jus come here n write stg..

hmm, now i m having holiday..but very boring..i will bteaching tuition every morning for 2weeks till theend of November..there's no class for December..hmm,means no income lo..haih..tot of finding a part-time, but lazy too..haha

hmm, the time of a day passed so slow,but it passed so fast when i count wit weeks..OMG..means i m spending my time meaninglessly..haih..

hmm,and 1 more thing: i m thinking of him every moment..wat to do??the feeling is getting stronger by time..i dono how long i can hold on to tis..haih..wish everything will go fine..

well, i think tats all of the nonsense crap here..hv a good day tmr ^_^ (to me, n to every1..)

blur? or jus running away?

hmm, so long din blog here lo..
well, feeling "a weird feel", so come here to blog it as this blog is almost no1 noe tat it exist..
hmm, the "weird feel" tat i m saying is tat i think i hv special feelings towards some1..hmm, wats wrong wit tat??it is normal..well, wats wrong is tat he has gf d..although she is currently studying abroad but it is not good to become the 3rd party..n i don wish to become the 3rd party..
but, on the other hand, though i m feeling bad for it, to say it honestly, i like him!! n deeper the feelings has become as days goes by..seeing him for almost everyday.. now i even feel uneasy or "weird" when i din see him for jus 1 day today.. n to say it honestly, i hv fall for him, without even i notice since when it started..
hmm, yesterday, u told me u r down, stg is bothering u..stg bout relationship..u n ur gf..it almost break the barrier i set for myslef to control my feelings towards u..luckily, i still can hold myself up..
today, u come n discuss wit me tat others r talking bout wat i wrote in my blog..u told me tat if anything happens, i can always tell u..n told me u oso like me, but we hv a limit..well, we can still b like b4 n tats wat i hope for..bcz i noe, u n i wont become couple,cz u hv gf d..
but i m really happy tat we can tell each other how we feel n still settle it calmly..thank you very much tat u still promise to look after me..i wish tat everything will go jus fine without any1 getting hurt..tats wat both of us really hope for.. ^^